February 23, 2013

Helping others without getting anything back

See those? Those are SNAILS!
Today, after sixth period, I was walking to the corner, near the lockers, so I could walk to the school bus with my host sister... when I stepped on something crunchy. Terrified I looked back in case I might have stepped on one of these poor and innocent little souls! :O ..... However, it turned out to be just a piece of bark -____-
For a split second I felt a tiny hole in my heart and thought to myself: "Wow... it's been quite some time since I last saw a snail like this (Yes, we have blue snails in Denmark... And they eat unicorns. They're pretty awesome.), and I felt like something was missing. How come I haven't seen a snail for so long? A slimy little snail shouldn't be that hard t---- and then it hit me!

.. I mean.. it's not that I already know or something. It's not that I've realized that I'm in a completely different world over here... or that I'm not speaking in my native tongue... or that school is way too easy... or that I see FAR from as many blondes as I usually do... or that home is but a Skype call away!
I know. Sometimes it just hits me, like today, and during those moments I just stop. I stop, take a breath, look around, blink a couple of times, and think to myself: "What the heck did I get myself into?"
My friends must have thought I was crazy back when I told them I was going to be an exchange student... and I've grown to think they were right.. or at least that this decision was.
Sometimes when I sit down alone, and think about life, and figure that I'm hungry, and go grab food, and go back to my room, and think about my life.. the constant thought of what-would-I-have-been-doing-if-I-had-been-back-in-Denmark-right-now hits me. What WOULD I have been doing? I'd probably have been drowning in homework and large assignments like my friends right now... and when I finally had time, I'd be considering my costume for the big upcoming dance. It doesn't sound very interesting, but often I think of stuff that I want to do, realize that I'm here in America, and force myself to turn down that idea because it just wouldn't be possible. (It's okay though. I have a whole entire year to figure out my costume and make it greater that anyone else's! Muahahah!).
So on the other hand... this is nice and relaxing year for me. I've definitely learned a lot already and I feel like I've grown a lot mentally. I've been through some stuff that has simply prepared me for life - and all those arrogant butts out there whose behinds seem to be the things they're thinking with.

Nonetheless, there ARE nice people out there who will, in any case, be there for you and be ready to help you if you need it.
I want to share with you my last week and two examples of my above sentence.

Last Friday I woke up and felt terrible from the second I opened my eyes! (I actually felt bad before that, but that's not the point!). I felt rather dizzy and it was as if there was a greater force pulling me to the bed. Of course we all have tried having those lazy-ass moments where we just won't get up - So I got up! (Thinking it was nothing). I lazied around like I always do in the morning, laid down on the floor, checked my stuff, and was being pulled towards the ground by the invisible yet strong force. I swear. It was as if I had put on like 20 kg over the night!
I went to school but had to stay out during my first period - Dance. While I was sitting there, I suddenly felt super hot, then I got goosebumps, then it was like I was sitting in a sauna, then Antarctica!
I proceeded to my second period - English. I couldn't focus on my stuff and now I felt extra dizzy. My host sister had been trying to convince me, through texts, that I should go see the nurse and call her dad, so when class was over, I looked at the "cute senior guy" and asked him if he could do me a favor and show me to the nurse.
I don't always get sick (very very very seldom!), but when I do... I'm DYING! 
"Yeah, of course!" he said and gave me his usual smile. 
He followed me up to the door, gave me a pat and said "I hope you get better soon" before he walked off and I opened the door. 
A good example of a fellow citizen (oh gosh I sound like a mayor) helping out others! 
Except for Saturday where I was feeling surprisingly amazing, I've been stuck in my bed! My host family has been a prime example of giving without receiving. And that is really what it's all about. Put yourself and your own needs aside to sometimes help out others. No you won't get anything from it now but the happiness in people's eyes or voice when you do something nice for them should be more than enough - and even though you don't get anything back now, you will later. That is karma, which I believe in, and trust me, those people will remember what you did for them next time you are the one in need of help.
My host family has been treating me like a princess - a really contagious one. I've been staying in my bed and my sister would come in and feed me, talk to me while I ate, and take out my plates when I was done. She'd also bring me water or painkillers if I needed it - and she even got my homework on Tuesday when I missed school~ (Monday we were off because of President's Day).
 My very very nutritious Thai soup and pear pieces~ I really like that she brought me the chopsticks too! One does simply not eat this kind of food without chopsticks!
 Fahti brought both Angel and I little white bags with this stuff wrapped in from my "host grandmother".
Angel's note that she pushed under my door while I was sleeping.
Treated like a super lazy princess!

Yesterday there was an episode in my ASB class and I really just needed someone there for me - of course I don't show that. Stay tough! - And out of the blue steps my two friends Alex and Kim.
It went something like this~

~~~~~~ Woooh flashback! ~~~~~~
We were standing there making posters for our Sadie Hopkins Dance tonight. I was standing on one side of the table, making my own little poster, and Kim and Alex were standing on the other side working on their own. This guy walks up to me (I would have described him as a friend but I can't seem to find those words anymore) and gets all in my face. (I didn't mind him of course. My attention is what he wants and he ain't getting that!).
"Change your classes" (We're in fourth and fifth period and he's been mad at me for some time now).
"No" I said without moving my eyes from my poster
"Change your classes!"
"No!" I said again with power in my voice, again without granting him a look.
"Why? Go change them!"
"No. Because it's too late" (And why should I? You are not to give me orders. I like this class).
"Go to the office RIGHT NOW and ask them to change your classes!"
All I needed now was to figure the price for the Sadie's tickets and my poster would be done. I looked to the girl next to me and asked her for the price.
"I don't want to see your face anymore!"
Finally I turned my head in his direction, gave him a cold look and said: "I don't care".
I looked back at the girl who had asked around her and she finally told me it was 25 $. Just as I was about to write it, that guy, who had been standing way too close beside all the time, ripped the poster out of my hands! The entire room got quiet and everybody were just standing there in shock! Kim literally jumped on the other side of the table.
I didn't even look at him this time. On the inside I was just as shocked as everybody else, but I didn't show it. I stood there for not even a second before I walked back over and grabbed a new piece of paper at the end of the table. I could care less for my poster. I could make a new one. But our friendship was shattered.
He had stormed out of the room while I went for the paper, and when I came back over, everybody were starring at me. I didn't mind them. I started on my new poster when I heard a girl say something. "Are you okay?" she asked while everybody stayed quiet. "Of course" I said and gave her a smile (You need more than that if you want to hit me, I thought to myself).
Soon people got back to their own stuff but I heard some girls on the other side... "Woah! I would have been afraid! Wow! I'm shaking! Hihihi". 

The fact wasn't that he ripped away my poster and perhaps stomped on it, it was the way he acted when he got mad. I give chances, in some cases second chances, but he has already done stuff like that before and I'm done. I'm not a type of person to ever let go of my friends but I guess there will always be an exception.

I wish we would never have to meet again; nevertheless, I still have about four months here so let's just let him enjoy my presence. Shouldn't we?
I only have one thing left to say to him and that is Goodbye!

This was fourth period and after that was lunch. Kim and Alex, who had been standing there watching the whole thing, came over and freaked out with me a little. They told me that he, apparently, had been just about to slap me but that he probably didn't because they were both standing there on the other side.
"He probably knew that if he touched you, we would have beat him up" Alex said. "I can have two guys punching each other but you just don't touch girls! You just don't!"
They kept asking me if I was okay and when they were sure that I was, they asked me where my friends would usually hang out at. After that they walked me over there (Like bodyguarding. One on each side of me - as Angel said.), went to grab lunch, and came back to spend lunch with all of us and tell about what happened.
I'm pretty good at fooling people. I looked okay, yet they didn't leave my side. For that I am overly thankful. I DID need them there, they reminded me of how amazing it is to have guy friends. Girls would have freaked out while these two stayed calm.

February 14, 2013

Valentine's Day finally caught up!

Happy Single-Awareness Day!
Happy Quirky Alone Day!
Happy Valentine's Day!

For most people (at least over here), Valentine's Day can be either a curse or a day of continuous happiness. It will either be an amazing day where your whole entire face will be one big smile, and where you will have a constant urge to just hug everything near you that breathes and has a body temperature of 37 degrees celsius~ OR! It can be the most terrible day of the year; a day in which all you want to do is to stay home and just go die in a hole sit there on your couch, eating yourself fat in ice cream, while watching stupid and unrealistic love movies (Opinionated? Yes! I'm really not a fan of those honey-bunny sweet love movies. Bwadr!).

For me, I've personally been celebrating Single-Awareness Day and Quirky Alone Day 17 years in a row. IN A ROW I SAY! I'm not much in for sharing this part about my private life, so I won't get into details, but I thought that the year 2013 would be the year that I would break my tradition and actually NOT be alone on this day. I've had something with a guy for a decent time now, but two days ago, he decided to break it off (in a pretty rude way if you ask me!) and leave me there; however, my positive mind was determined to not let this ruin my day. When I got to school this morning, I was prepared for the best! 

The night before I had stayed up late with Angel; partly because she had to finish her homework, partly because I had promised to make little pandas on her nails for Valentine's Day, and partly because I was making little cards for my friends.

(Uuuh look! I'm so proud c:)

My first class was dance class, and here I got to give most of my cards away before the bell rang. When it did, I changed into my cute flowery dress and headed out to give cards to my two guy friends. 
 My sister was the first victim and actually I gave this one to her at the library where we usually meet up with our friends Khla and Cassandra at in the mornings. My sister is 100% sure that the zombie apocalypse is going to happen one day so I thought I would play the joke on her. She was one of the people that would, if possible, just have stayed home and hated on Valentine's Day, but at least she got a smile on her face when I handed her the card! Aaaand then it disappeared when she read it, but oh well! 

I also got to hand one to Khla who's a more recent friend of mine. Since I didn't really know him that well, I thought I'd just put a random poem in it. He was very happy though! Later, when we were on our way to the busses to get back home, he walked up and thanked me :)
Yeeeah... I realize that picture wasn't the best. The card said: Somewhere there's someone, who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence, that life is worthwhile. So, when you are lonely, remember it's true: somewhere a STALKER is thinking of you! And since Khla, as earlier mentioned, is an exchange student from Thailand, I thought I'd use Google my amazing language skills and write Happy Valentine's Day in Thai - I succeeded! 

Cassandra is Angel's best friend, and I haven't really talked to her THAT much, but of course she deserved a Valentine's card too! Angel wanted to join me in the making of cards too but had way too much homework; thus, I write her on mine~ 
(Weird little drawings of Angel and Cassandra on top, me at the bottom). 

Elyssa, an actual friend of mine, was also with us in the locker room, so I got to give her her card too. Her's was the first I made and I really just wanted to show her I cared for her - By drawing an otter and writing a cheesy message.

Speaking of cheesy, Millie, the freshmen, beat me! During lunch she ran up to us and handed us these little cards. Angel's said: I leguana be with you (and had a picture of a leguana). Mine was more simple:
... Well

Millie blast, ha! 
I can't help but love her <3 
The pink thing in her hand was my lame card..
Le translation: You deserve a BIIIG heart for being such a nice and open-minded person :) I'm glad I have met you. Happy single-Awareness-, Quirky Alone-, and Valentine's Day! :D I hope your day will be amazing <3 (And then I wrote Happy Valentine's Day in Korean since I know she likes that stuff).

Now back to my story!! 
Marvin, our newest member of our little group in dance, was the last one to get a card during first period. He's... pretty crazy.. In a good way! You will never be bored around him.. especially not when he dances. I knew he had a girlfriend (that I met today! She is sooooo sweet), so I wouldn't write anything too special; he got a random comment too!

In the locker room, a friend of Angel (acquantance of mine) came up to us and handed each of us a cute little cupcake - And after class, Cassandra did the same! 
The card is from Elyssa (as you can see). Super cute and simple c: I felt so loved.

The "hot and popular senior guy" is in my 2nd period and he's been really nice to me so far. He always talks to me during class and has walked me to third a few times now.
 My hostparents will sometimes ask Angel how I'm doing at school, if I'm making any friends, to which she will answer: "Well, Lucy made friends with the hottest guy at school. Now she just has to work backwards!". He deserved a card too~
Letting people know how much you appreciate them never hurt anybody!
He .. Actually I can't tell if he was surprised. Slightly. He read it, thanked me, hugged me, walked me to class (where we had a short talk with Angel who came in mid-conversation and completely confused all 3 of us), hugged me and thanked me again, and walked off into the crowd of lovey-dovey people. 

When I walked into my 3rd period (Computer Apps), I had gotten a little sticky note, from my sticky-note friend, wishing me a Happy Valentine. I turned around and BAM! 
Seems like somebody's loved... That was a present to one of the "cool guys" from his girlfriend. I think it's funny how the boys would also walk around with stuff like this.. They kinda look... less manly. 

4th period was ASB and here I got to give away my last cards. I've recently been hanging out with Alex (the Italian) and Kim (The Southkorean) during that class. They're what some would describe as "loners" (they mostly hang out with each other) or "tough guys" - They don't exactly have the best reputation at school but what do I care? They're nice to me and I'm nice to them! You just have to know them .I especially think it's funny how they can talk about .. stuff, but when it comes to girls they get all blushy and changes the subjects. These are the two guys who panicked last time a big group of girls came over to talk to them. Tough guys, pshh!
Since they were my "cool" guy friends and stuff, I had actually expected them to .. make fun of my little cards and call them lame; however, when I handed them over, they just sat there quietly and read them. Alex (was supposed to move school next week but they changed the plans and let him stay) looked up and with the most sincere look I've got in a long time he said: "Thank you. No really. You just made my day. I hadn't got anything today and this is probably the only card I will get. Thank you, it's perfect!" (he was talking about the Italian part that I wrote).
Kim didn't mind the English but went straight to the Korean part that I had written using my, once again, amazing Google language skills. He didn't say much but the smile on his face was enough. 
After that, Alex treated us with little heart shaped cookies, decorated with pink sparkles (tough huh?), that his host mom had given him. 

Nothing much, but the fact that I actually saw the emo guy smile and thereafter stick a fluffy purple unicorn into my face, happened during 5th. In 6th I was just chillin' as usual. My teacher called me "her beautiful exchange student". I love that woman c:

Except for Alex's comment, another thing that made my day was a guy on our bus that we talk to on the ride home. His name is Harrison and he's hilarious! He's odd too and I don't always understand what he's saying. (He's pretty much that type of guy who will compare an intersection to a pineapple, and when you question him he will simply go into a completely different topic). Someone called out his name and soon a small card was passed up to him. Did he read it? No! He simply starred at it and took a bite o__O After a quick group "WHAAA?!", everybody turned around and acted like nothing happened while Harrison kept chewing on the card. 

 Creeping under the palmtrees with the bouquet that my host dad got me~ Angel, me, Fahti, and even Emma got one!

My hostmom had been in San Francisco and brought these home for us. Mine is the lightest one and it had my 3 favorite Ghirardelli chocolates in it :)

And this, my dear readers, is the story about how I spent my Valentine. No I did not have a valentine, I did not get a candy gram, I was not bombed with teddybears, flowers, and chocolate, and I didn't get more than two cards (I love those two though).... For me it wasn't about getting stuff. What made my day was the reactions from all of the people that I gifted <3 I had a wonderful day! I hope you did too, whether you were alone or with someone :)
Happy Valentine's Day! <3 

February 9, 2013

Dance show tonight and seagulls!

Right now I'm laying on my floor, enjoying myself, and waiting for Angel (My host sister) to get ready. Tonight is the big dance show at our school but since I'm new to the class (like a bunch of others), I haven't had time to learn the dances and won't be able to participate; however, I have to come watch it. It doesn't really bother me since it's extra credits and I would have gone anyways just to watch my sister + I LOOOOOOOOOVE the advanced dance class' dances. You see, yesterday we all got excused from first, second, AND third period so we could go to the gym and dance through the entire show a couple of times. I, of course, wasn't in any of the dances so I spent my time sitting with my friends Elyssa and Marvin and watched the dances.
My sister and I are in beginners and it sucks. I do NOT like my class - It is filled with lazy girls whose only reason to be in there is that they get PE credits and are able to skip running and all that stuff. I have been dancing for 8-9 years now and I'm not saying that I'm a super good dancer, but that level is just too low for me and people are not serious enough. To that you can add that our dance teacher has all 4 dance classes and this is the one that gets the least of her attention.
Anyways... I'm still really excited to go. Both Angel and Khla (Exchange student from Thailand) are in my class and I'm looking forward to watch them perform. Other than that, I'm also REALLY REALLY excited to watch the advanced class dance again. They. Are. Amazing! Simply amazing! I WISH I could be on that team but they are already too many and won't take more in :/ <///3

Now to change the subject... I want to share with you a little observation that I made yesterday (and today) at my school: Rio Mesa's students are FREAKING SCARED OF SEAGULLS! No.. that doesn't sound right. They are TERRIFIED by them!

As soon as the seagulls start to fly in, people crowd up under those little overhangs because they fear the birds. As a European that just sounds waaaay too weird for me. After a few minutes, the ground was almost clear from people and once in a while you'd hear girls screaming if the seagulls flew too near them. If you looked in the direction of the overhangs, you'd see those supposedly "tough" and "cool" guys trying to push each others out under the hovering birds, and they would fight for their lives I tell you!

Khla would, like me, not find the birds very intimidating; instead he went "outside" with me.. he also tried to make Angel join us, but only for a very short time until she would scream and run back to safety.
(Oooooh my gosh, her face! I loooooove it!)
Millie (our sophomore friend) did not like it either.

Khla was tough and joined me in taking pictures of people! (Ha, at least I wasn't the only creeper).

February 8, 2013

What's going on?

I know I've been really bad (like REALLY bad) at posting lately... Well okay... it could have been worse.
BUT!!! As my exchange student friends say: "No news is good news!" (which I guess is true sometimes).
This would probably be one of those moments where my friends are right; I really have nothing to complain about.
"Life is great!" like my former temporary hostmom Carol would say, and she is right!
She has been a huge inspiration from me and one of the most important things that I learned from her is that YOU yourself can choose to be happy every day (Well duuuh!). It sounds obvious, but surprisingly; not many people do it.
However, I do now and I'm enjoying every second. I wake up in the morning, smiling, and think to myself how lucky I am to be here. I think about how amazing my life is (now don't think that I'm bragging about my perfect life. It is not! I do have things going on in my life right now that bugs me but I just choose not to care THAT much about it. Just because ONE thing worries me, it's not that I walk around every day and think about it). Aaaaaaaand I wonder what this new amazing day has to offer me. I handle obstacles with a smile, I laugh at my confusion (and mistakes), and I act like a foreigner if there's something I don't understand (trust me, that stuff works! They looooove accents over here).

As of my changing hostfamily; I do not regret the least! My new house is amazing.  The dad wrestles with his Daughter Angel who's the same age as me. He's really funny and since he's been to a bunch of different countries in Europe and Asia, he's able to figure out why I would sometimes act different. Instead of questioning and getting mad at me, he'll just explain stuff instead. The mom is really nice too. She was born in Iran but moved to America when she was 18. She knows how it is being new to a country and she herself has been in those situations where the language barrier is just too much. She compliments my English all the time and is really good at encouraging both Angel and I when it comes to schoolwork and our future. She's the breadwinner in my family since the dad is at home. She's a business woman so she's also really good at making quick decisions for all of us. My other sister is this little cutie named Emma (like my actual Danish sister) and she's probably one of the most adorable babies I have ever known. She LOVES me! 
Lastly comes Pete who is their yellow'ish/blond labrador. Even though he's a pretty old dog (I think they said he was around 12), he's FILLED with energy. I have a really creaky door and whenever I get up in the morning; I'll have Emma yell my name and Pete coming right at me! Amazing start of the morning!

By reading my Danish friends' blogs I have also realized how short time I have left here, therefore I'm enjoying it even more. When you believe that every day is just a miracle, everything seems to make much more sense and nothing... NOTHING can ruin your day. Now let's say something terrible happened and you simply just couldn't keep that smile on your pretty face; there's always a tomorrow! Think of it like a game of pac-man: after you die, you can just simply start over!

So yeah. I've been busy the past few days. I haven't exactly been doing anything extraordinary... I have just..  I guess you can say I've been enjoying life :) I haven't even had time to talk to my family after I moved.
A bunch of stuff is coming up and I want to blog about aaaaaaaaaaall of it, but that would seriously make a waaaay too long post.

Tomorrow is a minimum day which means that I'll basically be out of school at lunch time. Monday is George Washington's birthday so we have that day off too. Weeeeee~ 3½ days weekend and so far no plans!

I really should go to bed now but I do have one last thing to say; THANK YOU!
Believe it or not but on February 4th I had had my blog for exactly a year! I still can't really believe that it's been so long already but oh well... time flies!
After having had my blog for a year, I have now had 5466 pageviews (Which is probably NOTHING... but for me it is big). When I first started my blog I had never thought that I'd actually have people read it. With all those other great blogs out there, mine was just yet a fish in the big ocean; nonetheless, some fantastic people out there actually took their time to read it. They spent their prescious time on my random blabbering and I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful that somebody out there gave me the chance to make me feel like what I'm writing is actually worth something, and I promise you guys: I will keep blogging! I'll keep working on my use of the English language, I'll try to make my posts funny, and I'll try to improve my actual blog :)
Thank you to all of you for inspiring me to keep going! You guys are amazing!

February 3, 2013

Jilian Jensen from X-Factor

My Americans readers might probably have heard about her. For the rest of you: "ya' better find her on Youtube!"
Here you can find her audition at the show~

Jillian Jensen touched many people when she was in X-Factor and had a standing applause as she made the judges and almost the whole entire crowd cry with her background stories and her deep felt singing. She did not win; however, she made a big difference on the show and many people were furious when she got eliminated.
She showed up to our rally at my new school last Wednesday to talk about bullying and to inspire other kids that, like her, have been or are struggling with the evil and arrogance of other people. She told us her story, how she dealt with it, and how she got  out of it and for many students it was a really inspiring speech. She also sang a couple of songs for us including an original, her audition song, and a Justin Bieber song. When it came to the Justin Bieber song, the guys from my ASB class walked up and twirk'd behind her. People freaked out!
Even though her performance was great and her speeches were being felt deeply in many hearts, we still happened to have an arrogant F who was full enough of himself to shout "EMO!" at her; nonetheless, she stayed strong and got back at him with style!
I was sitting in the front row and having her stand just 2 meters from you was an incredible experience. Of course I was stupid enough to not bring my camera but my host sister recorded the rally. Even though I think the Senior rally have been the best (the one I went to), the Junior rally is now available for you to watch~ This was the one where she got back at that guy who called her an emo.

A picture of Jillian performing in our gym.

Performing an original~

"As Long As You Love Me" by Justin Bieber

Watch the entire rally above!