April 30, 2015

Got our student caps!

Remember how I, in my post two days ago, mentioned how I had reached the point of "I don't really care anymore" and how getting through the last few assignments was especially hard?

It still is. Those facts don't change over night

......buuuuuuut it certainly felt MUCH easier to overcome the few days we have left after we received our student caps yesterday! 
↑This was my friends and I some 8-9 hours ago↑

Why the excitement? It's just a cap?
Since I have also acquired an American cap and gown and experienced how it felt to wear and own, I feel confident when I say that there are so many more emotions attached to the student cap.
I don't know if the Swedes and Finns view their caps the same way as Danes do but for us, the cap bears a very special status.
Previously, in Denmark, the caps were connected to very high status as very few graduated. The number of graduates is way higher today but the aura of sophistication still remains - and so do the traditions (and superstitions)!
One of them is that you MUST NOT put on your cap before your last exam - if you do YOU WILL FAIL!!!
However, you have to try it on at least once to make sure that you've gotten the correct size, right?
So when you're done you need to put the cap on the floor and jump over it backwards thrice to ward off bad luck. Yes, I did that when I came home. I don't have a death wish!
You can read some of the other traditions here.

As my friend and classmate Anne put it: "Today you had a baby. This is just like a baby! We've been slaving away the past three year to get this [cap]! Earning this hurt just as much as giving birth to a real baby but as soon as you lay eyes on it, all the pain becomes worth it!"

I could not agree more although none of us are moms and have no idea how it feels to give birth. But it hurt! It hurt a lot! I had never imagined I'd be so happy about... *a hat*... but I am!
Just thinking about it makes me smile so much. When our class opened the big boxes with the caps inside, it was as if a bunch of VIPs had just been informed of BIGBANG having a comeback a bunch of kinder gardeners had just been let into Disneyland for the first time. 

So like so many other new moms I'm now going to spam my social network you with a billion pictures of my "baby"! 

53,5 is the cap size and it is tradition that the two people in your class with the largest and smallest cap sizes each have to give a beer crate to the rest. 
C.L.Seifert was founded in 1865 here in Denmark by a German tailor and has been appointed by both of the royal courts in Denmark and Sweden. Philip is also getting his cap from here~
Inside the box was a white with the cap inside
Of course it was decorated with the company's name as well.
And now the cap! On top was the logo to show aaaaall the other students that we got the cooler caps~ (no idk why it's there).
The size had costumized buttons. One with your class...
and one with the year you are to graduate in.
On the back is, also embroidered, the name of your school and your own name below.
I couldn't really get a good picture of this since there are so many letters that they had to bend around the cap.
On the front is a cockade (red for my school (STX) and blue for Emilie's (HHX)) with a Dannebrog cross in front. You can have other symbols instead but since this is the original one I didn't bother changing mine.
For me, the most important part was the engraved messages on the bottom side of the brim. I asked my best friends Emilie and Kong Kong to write in mine and it just means a lot to me to have their words with me like this.
Emilie's quote actually happens to be in Simlish - the language used in the Sims games. Emilie and I have always been fond of the games so this message carries a very special implicit status. It translates to "Nothing is impossible if you believe"
Kong: "You just began the long haul to the summit"
There are a lot of "rules" regarding the student cap and some of them say that you will have to cut into the brim if you do this or this during the first week after graduation. Ain't NOBODY going to touch my brim!
Aaaand here's the full cap! You've probably noticed the American flags, am I right?
The reason for this is that I, unlike most people, took my exchange year while also attenting the Gymnasium back in Denmark, resulting in me actually having spent the past 4 years instead of 3 years aiming for the cap. My exchange year was the reason for me ending up with the people I'm with now and thus I felt like it was important for me to highlight (and for old catlady Lucy to remember!)
My "baby" from another angle!

Inside the box was also a certificate
With pictures of the official royal appointments
A text congratulating us on passing the exam and telling us how the caps are all handmade - oh and that there is a 50 years warranty!
Yup that's me - getting excited about even a paper.

These caps symbolize the pain we went through these past 3 years. The 177 assignments (yes, I counted) we wrote so far (it'll be 179 in total). It symbolizes the stress and the sleepless nights.

April 28, 2015

11 days left

Around the time I wrote my last post I wasn't having my best time. Pressure from school and most of all my own high expectations mixed with the lack of attention from a specific person was getting to me. Things have calmed down a bit.... or rather, I have after talking to my best friend and ranting to Maria.

Emilie and I haven't spent time together since we wrote our SRPs - whenever I finally find time in between my assignments, she's working on her own. Until lately, that is. On two different evenings she's texted me out of the blue, asking if she could stop by for some "late night catch up" as she called it - just to talk for a couple of hours. I'm really happy she did this. Really.
As the end of our college life is nearing I feel more and more insecure about my choice. Korea studies is what I [think I] want to do now but the fear that I'm making a wrong choice reappears from time to time.
During our catch up she told me that she was going to apply for China studies in Aarhus (another big Danish city) and that she and her boyfriend had already gotten a really neat-looking apartment up there. Meanwhile I'm just here like:
Nooo jkjk. Well kinda. 

If there is such a thing as a soul that happens to be split into two, I'm pretty sure Emilie's got the other half to mine. We're both applying for Asian studies at the two oldest universities here in Denmark and, in case our plans fail, even our plan Bs are alike: to go to China/Korea and learn the languages on our own!
All this without even having discussed it with each others. Speak of like mindedness!

Back to the topic...
As mentioned, things have calmed down. While I want to do my best during those few days left in school I have reached the same point of "I don't really care anymore" as my friends. Especially getting through the last few assignments is hard! I can't make any radical changes to my grades anymore so all there's left for me to do is to enjoy the time with my friends and cross my fingers that I won't have bad luck with my exams!

And while we're at the topic of friends: solely focusing on school these past weeks has totally hijacked my attention away from the fact that OHMYGOSH KHLA IS GOING TO VISIT ME THIS SUNDAY!!!!!! AKJSHdKJAHSDKJSA!!!!

Okay stop. STAPH!
Do you know who Khla is? You probably don't unless you've been following my blog since 2013. Khla was an exchange student from Thailand who went to Rio Mesa (my American school) with me. And for the first time since our parting in America we're going to see each other again!
I really can't wait for Sunday! We haven't planned where exactly to bring him or what to show him yet but hopefully we'll come up with something cool!

He's going home on May 7th and the day after I'll be off to the last SVS con with my friends Jasmin and Siw. I haven't had time nor brain capacity to to plan what to wear and I haven't had time to repair my Eto costume - which is horrible 'caus we're going to be doing a Tokyo Ghoul photoshoot with a couple of others and I have no idea what to do! ARGH! (✖╭╮✖)

April 13, 2015

22 days left

We've finished the written tests and tomorrow the seniors are all going back to having normal classes again. 
To be honest, I have a feeling that I did well (knock on wood)! - We'll see when the grades are published.

Also, I didn't get to spend my days off how I'd planned. It turns out that there are already enough participants for the cosplay show, which means we didn't make it in time and therefore won't get to be in it. Buuuh.
The next big convention here in Denmark is the one called Genki but I won't be home that weekend - meaning we have to wait for J-Popcon 2016! Wearing the costume before having performed would spoil the fun so our work on the dresses will be put on indefinite hiatus for now.

What did I do instead then?
Well, this weekend was really important.

Saturday I was invited to my cousin Camilla's 30th birthday as the only one from my household! This was a really big deal to me since I rarely see this side of my family due to some family quarrels that happened while I was abroad - and unable the change the course of events.
At first I felt a little out of place. These people were my family but I felt like I knew nothing about them. Well, as time passed, we caught up. My aunt and uncle are during fine - traveling as always - and shared pictures and some exciting stories from their trips. My half-cousin Mike and his girlfriend have just bought a big lot in the same neighborhood as I live in, Cathrine and her boyfriend through 8-10 years (I'm not exactly sure) are expecting their first child in June this year, and Camilla seems to have found a really nice boyfriend (I definitely approve of him).

Sunday was my parents' silver wedding anniversary.
The night before, while I was at the party, my grandparents, siblings, grandcousins, and their kids had made a beautiful arch out of spruce, decorated it with fresh flowers, and put it up outside our front door. They had placed flags everywhere outside and put a shield with the names of my parents and their wedding date above the door.
 Since I couldn't be there to make the arch, I went to my grandparents place a dew days earlier and made the shield.
 In the morning my siblings and I went outside to meet up with neighbors, family, friends, colleagues and everyone else who wanted to celebrate with us before walking up to the front of our house. My grandparents had hired two men to come and play as it's a tradition to wake up the couple with horn music and singing.
We were way more people than I had thought

When the singing was over, my parents invited all the guest inside for breakfast and liquor
During this kind of event, you never really know who is going to show up. People came and left throughout the day as they pleased
In the evening, everyone had left but my grandparents, grandcousin and her kids, and my dad's aunt who stayed for dinner.

With so much going on in my life right now and the many choices I'm being faced with, I find comfort in watching my family. Almost all of our cousins are older than us and although a couple of them have met severe hardships in life it seems like everything's falling into place. 
My parents, who have spent such a long time together is a great example of what real love is - not those stupid "relationship goals" pictures that are flooding the internet. Now that is how I'd like my future to be. If I ever get married, that is. 

There's only 22 "normal" school days left today. In 37 days, we will have our last day at school before the exam period begins and in 74 days, the life we've led the past 3 years will cease to exist. Never again will we show up in that classroom with those people to be taught that subject by that teacher. It sounds pretty negative now that I read it, but that's how I feel about it all. I know the 74th day from now marks a new beginning but am I ready for this to end? Have I spent the past 4 years wisely? Are there things I need to do before school ends? If so, what are they?
We'll be free to do whatever we want  - and at the same time faced with new challenges. New choices to make. 
As for me, I applied for the University of Copenhagen and if I am to be accepted, it means I have to move out - perhaps to Sweden.
Moving to another country sounds a bit... overwhelming, doesn't it? Well, financially, it seems that would be the better choice for now. 

Although we're busy in school, there are rest days here and there where I find myself pondering over these questions. Although I don't have much free time right now, there's still enough time for me to think. To think too much and to worry about things I shouldn't worry about - which is definitely not needed at this moment where focus on school is most crucial. 

School is like a race. These past few years you've been running alongside the other students but you're nearing the finish line and now is the time for you to work harder. To speed up. Because you only get one chance during your final like you only get one finish time in the race. 

April 1, 2015

Easter break!

Hellooo hellooooooo~ and HAPPY EASTER!!

A huge stone was lifted off my shoulders last Friday when I turned in my AT assignment (another was lifted off when I read that the University of Copenhagen had received my application). As I wrote in THIS POST, AT is the only oral exam we know for sure that we will have to take and this one is pretty strange since you will have to write a synopsis and then, during the exam, defend it. Although it was NOTHING compared to the frustration and 3 existential crises I endured during the SRP period, I had my share of struggle trying to write the AT. After the horrible result last time I really wanted to excel this time! But for the first time ever I'm actually satisfied with the synopsis so hopefully that will help.

Now I'm on Easter break and won't have any "normal" school days again before April 14th.
These are my schedules the next 3 weeks:
The gray blocks mean that I'm on vacation. The blocks with red mark the days I have written tests - Danish, English, and Spanish. It's important to do well in these tests as their grades will count unless I end up having to take an exam in those subjects.
 All in all, 5 days have been cleared for us to take these test but people who don't take Math anymore won't have to take those and so on. This means that I'm off Monday (as seen below) and I was supposed to also be out of school Wednesday and Thursday if it wasn't for those extra physics classes I'm taking.

Anyways, I'm on Easter break for now and Saturday night my friends Susanne and Mette had arranged a little Easter dinner party for a couple of girls in the spirit of Easter.
 They'd set the table really nice with bunny egg nameplates
 And we'd each brought a side dish to share. I made deviled eggs, which my hostgrandma Pat had taught me how to make. Not all of the girls were courageous enough to taste them though..
 I don't think egg hunting has ever been a thing here in Denmark so instead Mette had her little brother hide bags with our names on around the house for us to find. They contained gum, chocolate bunnies, and nougat eggs.
 For dessert Susanne had bought hollowed chocolate eggs and filled them with something that tasted like cheesecake. On top was a dash of apricot marmalade. They were really yummy and such a cute idea!
Credits go to Susanne's Instagram for this one

Saturday I went to Jasmin's place so we could finally get started on our cosplays. Because of school we haven't had time to work on them yet and we have yet to record the sound for our performance. Our plan was to perform at the cosplay show at the last SVS con here in May but there are only 10 spots left and we haven't secured ours before our audio file has been sent to and approved by the organizers. The stress is real.
But yea, we met up and later in the evening Siw joined us. I slept there until Tuesday and this is how far we got.

Jasmin drew this^
We still need SO much (capes, lining, shoes, the top part of the dress, and to decorate the cape and dress) and finding a nice-looking wig has proved impossible so far... 
I hope we'll make it! > < 

Except for the cosplay I don't really have any specific plans for Easter (except for my next school assignment). I'd hoped Philip could visit me but it seems school is taking up all of his time right now.

What about you?
Are you going to do anything during Easter? Maybe travel somewhere?

While moving pictures from my phone I found the pictures I took the Friday before Easter break during our solar eclipse. I was really excited for it as well as a large group of other students from my school but the weather made it hard to watch. Most of the time the sun was covered up by these huuuuuuuuuge clouds but I was happy to snap this picture! 
This one was taken through special solar eclipse glasses
Lastly I would like to link to THIS beautiful (and TRUE) sketch made by a friend of mine.